In January 2009 I married my best friend. Through the next 6.5 years we would live in 6 different apartments/homes, graduate college, buy 2 cars and welcome 2 wonderful boys into our family. I was living the life I had always dreamed of. I was a mother to 2 great kids and had a husband I loved madly.
When Mr. P (that's what I'm going to call him anyway, Mr. P. Even though I have to say it out loud often enough I'm not a fan of the phrase "ex-husband". It just leaves a bad taste in my mouth. So for now, I will call him Mr. P)......When Mr. P came to me out of the blue one day saying he wasn't happy anymore and hadn't been for quite some time my life as I had once known it was drastically shattered. I lived in my own happy bubble and I realized that fact just then, it was my own happy bubble. A bubble that he didn't live in with me. After much talk and a large attempt on my part at convincing him to stay, he left anyway. I didn't understand it then, and I don't know if I ever will.
I spent the next few weeks and months picking myself up, most with help from the Lord, and moving on with my life. Once I got past the initial shock of my situation and spent a good amount of time grieving the loss of the life I thought I was going to be able to live I realized this was it. My moment. I was on my own, just my 2 boys and me. I officially had a do-over. This was my chance to do some serious soul-searching and realize what I truly wanted in life. After focusing so much of my time and energy on someone who did not feel the same way about me I decided I needed to focus that time and energy on my kids first, and then the remaining on me and what me ME happy.
And so here I am today. Sharing my experience with you. Whether it be with a multitude of people, or one other single woman. A look into my life, my kids, my beliefs and the thought that as a single mom I can do amazing things.
